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By Cheryl B. Engelhardt from CD Baby's DIY MusicianThe first time someone (who didn’t share my last name) contributed to my record-funding campaign, I wasfloored
. And then I got serious anxiety.Truthfully, I was terrified – people were actually listening, believing in me, and NOW I NEEDED TO MAKE THIS THING HAPPEN. Once I started breathing again, I acknowledged that my email list wasn’t just a list of 1349 emails I had gathered from touring. It was a place where people who enjoyed my music were ready to consume more. And possibly even contribute to the process financially.This was a hard concept to accept. I, like so many musicians, had come from the school of thought that “DIY musician = starving artist” and “raising money = asking for help.”Trusting in your email subscribers.
It was only when I finally gave my fans the opportunity to contribute that I was blown away by the fact that they did. I raised over $20k in my first ever fan-funding record-making campaign, with only a PayPal button on my website and my email list. (Three years later, I did it again using Pledge Music). Here’s how it all started.I had decided to release one demo of a song per month for 12 months, and each month someone could “sponsor” a song, which meant helping cover the production costs. At the end of the year, I remixed and mastered each song and created One Up, the album, which I distributed through CD Baby.“Memory” is the first song where a fan showed up in a way I had never dreamed of.This song is about not wanting memories.What? Yes. Weird, I know.When I started writing the lyrics for this song, I was missing my long-distance boyfriend at the time (now husband), and was getting sad and a little angry. I didn’t want to rely on the memories we had anymore… I wanted new ones. Beyond that, I just wanted to be present with him.I shared the demo of this song with my email list and one day, I saw a $1000 deposit from a fan I have never met before. (Read: not my mom.)I wrote an email to the PayPal address, thanking him profusely, and asking him what he wanted from such a generous donation (I hadn’t yet learned to create reward levels that high). He wrote back, sharing that he was a soldier in Iraq, and all he wanted was a poster to brighten up the barracks. He also said he felt like it was his way of giving back since he stole a lot of free music from Napster when he was in high school.Seeing as this song was already about long-distance relationships, I added a third verse too as a subtle nod to those fighting abroad, and made sure that he heard this song.“I need something to hold
and I choose you, I choose you
So won’t you come back home…
Of all the things that you have seen,
will you let them go, be all you can be?
I never thought I’d be this strong
I love you so this can’t be wrong
This can’t be wrong.”